Post by hunter on Dec 24, 2005 17:54:25 GMT -5
When this board first "debuted", I thought I would never be forced to use it. Apparently I was wrong. I quipped of its usage and existence, and I become a hypocrite. Eh...what's new?
Now we begin. For those who are confused right now, this is what is happening: Rena and I had planned a mini-storyline (not even a feud, a storyline) that we would do that was generally just a romance angle (which I won't spoil, as she has decided to do it with someone else). I was interested in doing it, mainly because I had never done a romance angle and because I was eager to work with Rena, which she refuses to believe.
Anyhow, I recently "signed up" to do a feud with our beloved AK and we decided to have a long, complicated, and awesome feud that would begin in February. Considering the direction I wanted to go with my character, I knew I couldn't keep up a romance angle and a long and complicated storyline of that dark caliber at the same time (I won't get into specifics about why). So, I generally had to make a choice. And I chose AK.
When I was originally planning to tell this to Rena, I thought it would be a simple in and out process. However, due to my "aggressiveness", it became something more. Completely inadvertently I had upset Rena by saying that I chose AK because I just in general would like to work with AK on account of her overall talent. This upset Rena and made her think that I was saying she was a complete shit writer, which is the furthest thing from the truth. Hell, those words didn't even come out of my mouth, nor my keyboard.
However, Rena took this the wrong way. Whereas I thought, "I don't want to lie to her, I'd rather be honest", she would have preferred a lie. This is a general thing which I disagree with, as I've always been about honesty. I lie only in times of dire need, and I thought this was not one of those times. I was wrong.
Rena was already upset as is, so by adding my "brutal honesty", I just upset her more. I won't get into specifics on how much more and how that happened, but let's just say it ended with her telling me that she no longer wished to continue our friendship and her logging off AIM.
Now, therein lies the conflict resolution. I don't mind her being upset at me for this, it's completely understandable. I'd be upset as well. I'm posting this so that she understands my point of view and understands that I understand that what I did was wrong, perhaps not from my point of view but from hers. I can understand how she says that certain times you need to lie. It was my careless misjudgment that didn't allow me to see that this was a time.
So, in conclusion, I sincerely am apologizing to Rena for any heartache and/or pain I may have caused her. It was not my intention for her to be saddened by my actions. All that I ask from her is her understanding of my side of the story. And, if I'm not completely dead to her, I would like to rekindle our friendship. Because, simply put, I do like her and her friendship, and I think ending a friendship on these kinds of terms is not good at all. Hell, ending a friendship at any time is not good. So, if Rena accepts my sincere apology, I'll be happy. And if she decides to restore our friendship, it would make me happier. And that is all.
Now we begin. For those who are confused right now, this is what is happening: Rena and I had planned a mini-storyline (not even a feud, a storyline) that we would do that was generally just a romance angle (which I won't spoil, as she has decided to do it with someone else). I was interested in doing it, mainly because I had never done a romance angle and because I was eager to work with Rena, which she refuses to believe.
Anyhow, I recently "signed up" to do a feud with our beloved AK and we decided to have a long, complicated, and awesome feud that would begin in February. Considering the direction I wanted to go with my character, I knew I couldn't keep up a romance angle and a long and complicated storyline of that dark caliber at the same time (I won't get into specifics about why). So, I generally had to make a choice. And I chose AK.
When I was originally planning to tell this to Rena, I thought it would be a simple in and out process. However, due to my "aggressiveness", it became something more. Completely inadvertently I had upset Rena by saying that I chose AK because I just in general would like to work with AK on account of her overall talent. This upset Rena and made her think that I was saying she was a complete shit writer, which is the furthest thing from the truth. Hell, those words didn't even come out of my mouth, nor my keyboard.
However, Rena took this the wrong way. Whereas I thought, "I don't want to lie to her, I'd rather be honest", she would have preferred a lie. This is a general thing which I disagree with, as I've always been about honesty. I lie only in times of dire need, and I thought this was not one of those times. I was wrong.
Rena was already upset as is, so by adding my "brutal honesty", I just upset her more. I won't get into specifics on how much more and how that happened, but let's just say it ended with her telling me that she no longer wished to continue our friendship and her logging off AIM.
Now, therein lies the conflict resolution. I don't mind her being upset at me for this, it's completely understandable. I'd be upset as well. I'm posting this so that she understands my point of view and understands that I understand that what I did was wrong, perhaps not from my point of view but from hers. I can understand how she says that certain times you need to lie. It was my careless misjudgment that didn't allow me to see that this was a time.
So, in conclusion, I sincerely am apologizing to Rena for any heartache and/or pain I may have caused her. It was not my intention for her to be saddened by my actions. All that I ask from her is her understanding of my side of the story. And, if I'm not completely dead to her, I would like to rekindle our friendship. Because, simply put, I do like her and her friendship, and I think ending a friendship on these kinds of terms is not good at all. Hell, ending a friendship at any time is not good. So, if Rena accepts my sincere apology, I'll be happy. And if she decides to restore our friendship, it would make me happier. And that is all.