Post by BK London on Jun 19, 2008 16:20:54 GMT -5
Segment: False Awakening (Credit: FSX)
Do you ever awake in the middle of the night, only to find yourself trapped in a nightmare? Where the world is a place that you just can't understand, and everything seems to be something out of a bad horror movie? Where it's all out to get you, and there isn't a single thing that can be done about it? It's scary when something like that happens...but absolutely terrifying when you realize that you've been awake all along. That your not simply in another dream, but rather staring reality in the face as it constantly attacks you. Some people really have to wonder how such a thing can be dealt with...how a person can truly understand and cope with the fact that they are despised by the majority. That no one will allow them to do what they wish, if only because of their own desire. That they will never receive the respect they desire, and that they must exhaust themselves just to continue a fight that no one truly wins at. How can you go on living such a life, well exhausted and paranoid of the few that stalk you? Probably not peacefully...and perhaps to the extent you can only sigh relieved that you realize it will all soon come to an end. Unless of course everything changes...
FSX: This is really getting annoying...
Grunting softly to himself as he continued to struggle with the fact that he didn't have the energy to arise from the place he had dropped down earlier, it was quite obvious that he was simply broken down from all that had occurred in the past few months. Giving your all and then some to carry on and attempt to be the best that you can possibly be? Probably not the best of ideas...in truth it was quite obvious that Fallen needed a long break at this point, but he would never accept one. Even if it meant that he had to die in the process he was determined to carry through will all of this...despite the fact it appeared more and more each day that no one wanted him too.
FSX: Eventually there all bound to realize the error of their ways, right..? That I've done such a good deed in helping them, and that proving all of this has made things worth while in their lives...that they have hope again, and that they always will in the future. Even if it's the end, they'll realize I've done them some justice...won't they?
Closing his eyes for a moment as he simply needed to rest from the stress of this entire situation, and probably from the fact that his mind hadn't taken a single break from it's racing pace since he began this quest to become the World Champion a few months earlier....or years earlier depending on how you chose to look at it. There would eventually come a time where he had nothing left to give, and he was more aware of that face every given day...but had it come so soon? It was starting to look like it.
FSX: Then again, who am I to do all of this? I'm not some great man that has what it takes to carry such a burden...I mean, I can't even get up right now! How pitiful can a person really be? This was meant for someone else to do, and I just have to admit it!
Voice: Your right, you know...
FSX: Yeah! I know I a....wait a second, who the hell is there?! Show yourself, fiend!
Struggling in order to raise his head from the ground, Fallen would snarl as he attempted to see just who it was appearing from the shadows to agree with him in such a manner! That devil would be punished for his tongue! But it was quite evident the coward wouldn't leave the shadows anytime soon and make things easy on him, thus Fallen was prepared to strike first if need be!
FSX: Well? Come on now! Show yourself before I'm forced to get up and kill you!
Voice: Uh...well, it's not like I'm hiding or anything. In fact I've been standing next to you for the past five minutes or so, you just haven't turned your head slightly to the right.
Almost seeming to snarl once more under his breathe, Fallen gritted his teeth and tried his best to turn his head slightly to the right for a few moments, clearly growing very distraught and upset upon coming to the sad realization that he was literally unable to do so in his current state, mumbling softly to himself as he still had no idea whatsoever as to who he was talking too. Upon realizing that Fallen indeed couldn't make any sort of move the individual would be heard having a laugh to himself, clearly pleased with the situation.
FSX: Well, for your information I'm not currently able to do that! But in all honest that isn't any of your damn business, because I can rest if I please! Who are you to eavesdrop on my conversation with myself, though? Can't I be schizophrenic in peace anymore?
Voice: Apparently not, but maybe that's for the best. In fact, I kinda think that I've come across you at the best time possible. Seeing that you can't possibly do a thing to harm me, and I can go ahead and hurt you if I feel like it. I'm still undecided if I'm going to or not though...sure is tempting.
FSX: Whatever! Just tell me who you are and why your bothering me at a time like this, because it's really irritating to talk to a disembodied voice. Don't you make me imagine you as some kind of giant talking gopher, because I will!
Closing his eyes tightly in order to picture the entire situation as if it was a clip from the movie Caddyshack, murmuring Ma-nanananana to himself didn't appear to be working whatsoever. Cursing softly as he realized he was doomed to not know the identity of this individual unless they came to the conclusion they should expose it to him, he sighed softly and decided it couldn't be helped. Fortunately, as he opened his eyes he caught a look at the man that had been talking to him a few moments earlier now, only to grimace at the sight...he really should of known...
Anger: Such a surprise, isn't it? You know damn well that I would show up again eventually, so here I am! Seems you've been doing great since you left me in a pool of my own blood and urine, though! How goes being an immobile asshole? Pretty good I'd bet! You sure do pull it off well!
FSX: ...S..Shut up! Is it my fault that I've trained so hard that I can no longer move? That recently I've had to travel around in freezing temperatures without a moment of sleep? That I've had to deal with the stress of battling for the rights of people that aren't given them fairly?
Giving quite the whole hearted laugh for a moment, Anger would feign wiping a tear from his eye as he really put on a bit of a show at all that Fallen said, clearly amused by it all as he seemed to be quite pleased with the fantasy land that his former friend happened to be living in, and the fact that Anger himself had helped place him in such a state. It was all so amusing to him now..even if he would of found the same things sad in the past. It was quite clear that Anger no longer felt anything for his former mentor, aside perhaps from hatred.
Anger: Your not a real activist, Fallen. Your just somebody who thinks that they're doing the world a favor. Desperately clinging to the belief that everyone will love them after they do something, only to realize they are hated the same. Not a thing will change from all of this, and you will NEVER be a hero to those that aren't getting chances. Why? Because it's not like your proving anything by losing to Sarin at Omega Effect, and praising yourself as a god in the process. Your just an egomaniac who's too bashful to admit it, and your crossing your fingers for people to finally like you.
Awaiting a brief moment for Fallen to come up with something witty and impressive as a comeback to what had just been said, Anger could be seen grinning from ear to ear upon realizing that Fallen simply didn't have one. He was finally stunned silent at words that could realistically be viewed as nothing but the truth, and it made him so pleased to know this, happily laughing to himself as he backed away from Fallen's line of view and was heard taking a few steps away, leaving a stunned Fallen alone for a moment, before his voice was heard once again.
Anger: So I just figured that I would take a break from my busy schedule to inform you of what an ass you happen to be, and that your not noble in the slightest. Your just an idiot who's throwing away his life for one lone chance at a title, and it's really pathetic. You'll never have the hopes of others on your shoulders, and in the end you'll simply be a pitiful individual...laying on your back as you look up at the real greats. So really...have fun in your land of make believe. Only a matter of time before reality shows up.
FSX: ...What an asshole...He's not right, is he? No...he couldn't be. I really am doing this to help others in the long run..and I don't care about being liked or loved by them, though I wouldn't hate it...I mean...there isn't a way this could be done for all the wrong reasons, because in the end it's what I want. Even in failure I'll be happy to of had my chance atop the mountain..and...he's such an ass!! That's all wrong, damn it! I can't just second guess myself....damn it...
Mumbling out insults as he was quite sure that Anger had walked out of an audible distance by now, Fallen was evidently quite distraught from what he had just been told a moment earlier. Could it all possibly be true? After all of this time, had he become a false prophet of hope? Did he really intend to do all of this for his own gain and opportunity? No..that can't be right..it was noble, wasn't it? They might of not wanted the help but...no..this couldn't be the case. Groaning and shifting a bit on the ground as he tried to come to an understanding of all this, the camera would move away from his madness to Ginger, who was standing off in the distance with a notably surprised expression. Had something finally gone....according to plan?!
Ginger: Well...it seems that my plan has actually worked this time around. That's new...maybe I'll be able to save the state of Omega Effect yet! Just have to find a suitable replacement now...
But did Ginger have the right to replace Fallen at this point? There wasn't any conclusive knowledge to point out that he couldn't properly represent himself at Omega Effect after all, and this could just be a moment of doubt brought on by a lack of sleep...was this all really fair and right to him? Who cares if it was?! Ginger didn't! It was an excuse to look for someone new, and nothing more...but who would be left at this point? Everyone had already filled their schedule...It might still be too late after all...
Fade out.
Do you ever awake in the middle of the night, only to find yourself trapped in a nightmare? Where the world is a place that you just can't understand, and everything seems to be something out of a bad horror movie? Where it's all out to get you, and there isn't a single thing that can be done about it? It's scary when something like that happens...but absolutely terrifying when you realize that you've been awake all along. That your not simply in another dream, but rather staring reality in the face as it constantly attacks you. Some people really have to wonder how such a thing can be dealt with...how a person can truly understand and cope with the fact that they are despised by the majority. That no one will allow them to do what they wish, if only because of their own desire. That they will never receive the respect they desire, and that they must exhaust themselves just to continue a fight that no one truly wins at. How can you go on living such a life, well exhausted and paranoid of the few that stalk you? Probably not peacefully...and perhaps to the extent you can only sigh relieved that you realize it will all soon come to an end. Unless of course everything changes...
FSX: This is really getting annoying...
Grunting softly to himself as he continued to struggle with the fact that he didn't have the energy to arise from the place he had dropped down earlier, it was quite obvious that he was simply broken down from all that had occurred in the past few months. Giving your all and then some to carry on and attempt to be the best that you can possibly be? Probably not the best of ideas...in truth it was quite obvious that Fallen needed a long break at this point, but he would never accept one. Even if it meant that he had to die in the process he was determined to carry through will all of this...despite the fact it appeared more and more each day that no one wanted him too.
FSX: Eventually there all bound to realize the error of their ways, right..? That I've done such a good deed in helping them, and that proving all of this has made things worth while in their lives...that they have hope again, and that they always will in the future. Even if it's the end, they'll realize I've done them some justice...won't they?
Closing his eyes for a moment as he simply needed to rest from the stress of this entire situation, and probably from the fact that his mind hadn't taken a single break from it's racing pace since he began this quest to become the World Champion a few months earlier....or years earlier depending on how you chose to look at it. There would eventually come a time where he had nothing left to give, and he was more aware of that face every given day...but had it come so soon? It was starting to look like it.
FSX: Then again, who am I to do all of this? I'm not some great man that has what it takes to carry such a burden...I mean, I can't even get up right now! How pitiful can a person really be? This was meant for someone else to do, and I just have to admit it!
Voice: Your right, you know...
FSX: Yeah! I know I a....wait a second, who the hell is there?! Show yourself, fiend!
Struggling in order to raise his head from the ground, Fallen would snarl as he attempted to see just who it was appearing from the shadows to agree with him in such a manner! That devil would be punished for his tongue! But it was quite evident the coward wouldn't leave the shadows anytime soon and make things easy on him, thus Fallen was prepared to strike first if need be!
FSX: Well? Come on now! Show yourself before I'm forced to get up and kill you!
Voice: Uh...well, it's not like I'm hiding or anything. In fact I've been standing next to you for the past five minutes or so, you just haven't turned your head slightly to the right.
Almost seeming to snarl once more under his breathe, Fallen gritted his teeth and tried his best to turn his head slightly to the right for a few moments, clearly growing very distraught and upset upon coming to the sad realization that he was literally unable to do so in his current state, mumbling softly to himself as he still had no idea whatsoever as to who he was talking too. Upon realizing that Fallen indeed couldn't make any sort of move the individual would be heard having a laugh to himself, clearly pleased with the situation.
FSX: Well, for your information I'm not currently able to do that! But in all honest that isn't any of your damn business, because I can rest if I please! Who are you to eavesdrop on my conversation with myself, though? Can't I be schizophrenic in peace anymore?
Voice: Apparently not, but maybe that's for the best. In fact, I kinda think that I've come across you at the best time possible. Seeing that you can't possibly do a thing to harm me, and I can go ahead and hurt you if I feel like it. I'm still undecided if I'm going to or not though...sure is tempting.
FSX: Whatever! Just tell me who you are and why your bothering me at a time like this, because it's really irritating to talk to a disembodied voice. Don't you make me imagine you as some kind of giant talking gopher, because I will!
Closing his eyes tightly in order to picture the entire situation as if it was a clip from the movie Caddyshack, murmuring Ma-nanananana to himself didn't appear to be working whatsoever. Cursing softly as he realized he was doomed to not know the identity of this individual unless they came to the conclusion they should expose it to him, he sighed softly and decided it couldn't be helped. Fortunately, as he opened his eyes he caught a look at the man that had been talking to him a few moments earlier now, only to grimace at the sight...he really should of known...
Anger: Such a surprise, isn't it? You know damn well that I would show up again eventually, so here I am! Seems you've been doing great since you left me in a pool of my own blood and urine, though! How goes being an immobile asshole? Pretty good I'd bet! You sure do pull it off well!
FSX: ...S..Shut up! Is it my fault that I've trained so hard that I can no longer move? That recently I've had to travel around in freezing temperatures without a moment of sleep? That I've had to deal with the stress of battling for the rights of people that aren't given them fairly?
Giving quite the whole hearted laugh for a moment, Anger would feign wiping a tear from his eye as he really put on a bit of a show at all that Fallen said, clearly amused by it all as he seemed to be quite pleased with the fantasy land that his former friend happened to be living in, and the fact that Anger himself had helped place him in such a state. It was all so amusing to him now..even if he would of found the same things sad in the past. It was quite clear that Anger no longer felt anything for his former mentor, aside perhaps from hatred.
Anger: Your not a real activist, Fallen. Your just somebody who thinks that they're doing the world a favor. Desperately clinging to the belief that everyone will love them after they do something, only to realize they are hated the same. Not a thing will change from all of this, and you will NEVER be a hero to those that aren't getting chances. Why? Because it's not like your proving anything by losing to Sarin at Omega Effect, and praising yourself as a god in the process. Your just an egomaniac who's too bashful to admit it, and your crossing your fingers for people to finally like you.
Awaiting a brief moment for Fallen to come up with something witty and impressive as a comeback to what had just been said, Anger could be seen grinning from ear to ear upon realizing that Fallen simply didn't have one. He was finally stunned silent at words that could realistically be viewed as nothing but the truth, and it made him so pleased to know this, happily laughing to himself as he backed away from Fallen's line of view and was heard taking a few steps away, leaving a stunned Fallen alone for a moment, before his voice was heard once again.
Anger: So I just figured that I would take a break from my busy schedule to inform you of what an ass you happen to be, and that your not noble in the slightest. Your just an idiot who's throwing away his life for one lone chance at a title, and it's really pathetic. You'll never have the hopes of others on your shoulders, and in the end you'll simply be a pitiful individual...laying on your back as you look up at the real greats. So really...have fun in your land of make believe. Only a matter of time before reality shows up.
FSX: ...What an asshole...He's not right, is he? No...he couldn't be. I really am doing this to help others in the long run..and I don't care about being liked or loved by them, though I wouldn't hate it...I mean...there isn't a way this could be done for all the wrong reasons, because in the end it's what I want. Even in failure I'll be happy to of had my chance atop the mountain..and...he's such an ass!! That's all wrong, damn it! I can't just second guess myself....damn it...
Mumbling out insults as he was quite sure that Anger had walked out of an audible distance by now, Fallen was evidently quite distraught from what he had just been told a moment earlier. Could it all possibly be true? After all of this time, had he become a false prophet of hope? Did he really intend to do all of this for his own gain and opportunity? No..that can't be right..it was noble, wasn't it? They might of not wanted the help but...no..this couldn't be the case. Groaning and shifting a bit on the ground as he tried to come to an understanding of all this, the camera would move away from his madness to Ginger, who was standing off in the distance with a notably surprised expression. Had something finally gone....according to plan?!
Ginger: Well...it seems that my plan has actually worked this time around. That's new...maybe I'll be able to save the state of Omega Effect yet! Just have to find a suitable replacement now...
But did Ginger have the right to replace Fallen at this point? There wasn't any conclusive knowledge to point out that he couldn't properly represent himself at Omega Effect after all, and this could just be a moment of doubt brought on by a lack of sleep...was this all really fair and right to him? Who cares if it was?! Ginger didn't! It was an excuse to look for someone new, and nothing more...but who would be left at this point? Everyone had already filled their schedule...It might still be too late after all...
Fade out.