Post by Thunderkiss on Jan 9, 2007 21:12:30 GMT -5
I just want to clear the air on a few things before I just jump back into things pretending some things didn’t happen.
First and foremost, the reason why I left is because I feel I was told to leave. I may be too proud for my own good, but when somebody who has senior capacity tells me “Like it or Leave” – I’m going to leave. I don’t care if it’s a job, class or anything else – when somebody says something like that – its disrespectful to me as a man. If there is something you feel I am doing wrong … look private chat or email me about it and I’ll set down and talk to you about it. One correct thing that was said is I am impulsive. I admit to being impulsive and perhaps if I did listen to Shawn a bit more this whole thing wouldn’t have happened. I am at fault there.
However, I am a bit frustrated at the appearance and belief that I am a backstage “troublemaker” here in ACW. I can see where perhaps some thought I was causing trouble with Lambert a few days ago in the chat, but the truth about that is it was about stuff that happened between us long before I came to ACW. My regret is that I didn’t take it to private chat and instead provided a show that did make me look like an angry son of a bitch. Though for Nick Durden to say an “ultimatum” needed to be laid out is completely and totally ridiculous. I’ve seen bitching – I’ve dealt with players who need an ultimatum. I feel most of my comments were completely more sarcastic in nature. To say I need an ultimatum is trash and compares me to those who have done such things as “cyber stalked” others.
Now about my tirades about Adrian Flamingo. Typing my response to this is hard to do, because I am totally at fault and am ashamed at the way I acted in some situations. My story lines have crossed over into reality and I became frustrated that something’s were coming more easier for Flamingo than they were for me. Though the “TK” expert himself, Nick Durden, would have you believe its jealousy .. I feel its more confusion & frustration than anything. I will admit right now to Flamingo, I called you and do believe you are an Adrian Adonis knock off. But you know what, I am totally a Hulk Hogan rip off so its all the same. Also Adrian, I do respect your work and respect you as a person and I do not *hate* you. I honestly have no clue on what “vulgar” remark I apparently said but I am most certain I didn’t say anything about you that would be classified as “vulgar”. Though I may not agree on all of the praise about you, you are a good roleplayer.
Also, Nick Durden, I have completely lost respect for you. Before hand, I’ve always defended your writing style and thought you were a great person who just wanted to give people good advice. Now I regret even talking to you because you wanted to become the “Thunderkiss Tabloid” as soon as I left. As I read through “my” post, I can’t believe some of the things you are saying about me that simply are NOT true. Saying that I just wanted to have things “handed” to me is completely wrong. I told you that yes, one day I wanted to become champion because I likely have 2 years of e-fedding left and its one of my goals to win a title that counts. Do you honestly think I am going to come in a place like this and say “Belt, gimme now”?!? What I said to you is this: I didn’t think I was getting noticed enough thus it was frustrating and might stop me from achieving my goals. Who’s fault is that? Well that’s on me and as I told you – I would and will work harder. I also talked to you about my hopes for a match with Macho, and some of them were off the wall yes and I did take your advice and decided against them. But here’s what you don’t know:
I DID talk to Macho about a match. I TOLD Macho that what he saw in the chat was just an act and that I like him and have nothing but respect for him. Do I honestly think I am going to win against Macho? Hell no…. but I respect the man enough and love his character that I just want to say – “I got beat by Macho Man”.
So Durden you can take comments like these:
Eh, he couldn't accept the fact that he'd have to actually do something before he'd be world champion.
He didn't hate Flamingo. I think he was just jealous.
When I talked to him privately, it seemed that he wasn't willing to take his lumps to get to the top. His plan was basically to pull a Paris Hilton and make himself popular for all the wrong reasons
Print them up on your printer, go into the bathroom and cram them straight up your ass until it bleeds, Dr Phil.
I would seriously like to thank Latino for his “intervention” on this matter. Through him I saw my own faults and plan to improve on them. Also, I was really surprised that many actually did notice me, which makes me feel like a complete ass. I really figured that most people wouldn’t even notice I was gone nor care. I am totally sorry that I let those people down, including The Chef who I hope can forgive me just walking out on him like that. ACW is where I want to be. As I’ve said, I would rather lose here than go to the bush leagues – and I sincerely mean it.
First and foremost, the reason why I left is because I feel I was told to leave. I may be too proud for my own good, but when somebody who has senior capacity tells me “Like it or Leave” – I’m going to leave. I don’t care if it’s a job, class or anything else – when somebody says something like that – its disrespectful to me as a man. If there is something you feel I am doing wrong … look private chat or email me about it and I’ll set down and talk to you about it. One correct thing that was said is I am impulsive. I admit to being impulsive and perhaps if I did listen to Shawn a bit more this whole thing wouldn’t have happened. I am at fault there.
However, I am a bit frustrated at the appearance and belief that I am a backstage “troublemaker” here in ACW. I can see where perhaps some thought I was causing trouble with Lambert a few days ago in the chat, but the truth about that is it was about stuff that happened between us long before I came to ACW. My regret is that I didn’t take it to private chat and instead provided a show that did make me look like an angry son of a bitch. Though for Nick Durden to say an “ultimatum” needed to be laid out is completely and totally ridiculous. I’ve seen bitching – I’ve dealt with players who need an ultimatum. I feel most of my comments were completely more sarcastic in nature. To say I need an ultimatum is trash and compares me to those who have done such things as “cyber stalked” others.
Now about my tirades about Adrian Flamingo. Typing my response to this is hard to do, because I am totally at fault and am ashamed at the way I acted in some situations. My story lines have crossed over into reality and I became frustrated that something’s were coming more easier for Flamingo than they were for me. Though the “TK” expert himself, Nick Durden, would have you believe its jealousy .. I feel its more confusion & frustration than anything. I will admit right now to Flamingo, I called you and do believe you are an Adrian Adonis knock off. But you know what, I am totally a Hulk Hogan rip off so its all the same. Also Adrian, I do respect your work and respect you as a person and I do not *hate* you. I honestly have no clue on what “vulgar” remark I apparently said but I am most certain I didn’t say anything about you that would be classified as “vulgar”. Though I may not agree on all of the praise about you, you are a good roleplayer.
Also, Nick Durden, I have completely lost respect for you. Before hand, I’ve always defended your writing style and thought you were a great person who just wanted to give people good advice. Now I regret even talking to you because you wanted to become the “Thunderkiss Tabloid” as soon as I left. As I read through “my” post, I can’t believe some of the things you are saying about me that simply are NOT true. Saying that I just wanted to have things “handed” to me is completely wrong. I told you that yes, one day I wanted to become champion because I likely have 2 years of e-fedding left and its one of my goals to win a title that counts. Do you honestly think I am going to come in a place like this and say “Belt, gimme now”?!? What I said to you is this: I didn’t think I was getting noticed enough thus it was frustrating and might stop me from achieving my goals. Who’s fault is that? Well that’s on me and as I told you – I would and will work harder. I also talked to you about my hopes for a match with Macho, and some of them were off the wall yes and I did take your advice and decided against them. But here’s what you don’t know:
I DID talk to Macho about a match. I TOLD Macho that what he saw in the chat was just an act and that I like him and have nothing but respect for him. Do I honestly think I am going to win against Macho? Hell no…. but I respect the man enough and love his character that I just want to say – “I got beat by Macho Man”.
So Durden you can take comments like these:
Eh, he couldn't accept the fact that he'd have to actually do something before he'd be world champion.
He didn't hate Flamingo. I think he was just jealous.
When I talked to him privately, it seemed that he wasn't willing to take his lumps to get to the top. His plan was basically to pull a Paris Hilton and make himself popular for all the wrong reasons
Print them up on your printer, go into the bathroom and cram them straight up your ass until it bleeds, Dr Phil.
I would seriously like to thank Latino for his “intervention” on this matter. Through him I saw my own faults and plan to improve on them. Also, I was really surprised that many actually did notice me, which makes me feel like a complete ass. I really figured that most people wouldn’t even notice I was gone nor care. I am totally sorry that I let those people down, including The Chef who I hope can forgive me just walking out on him like that. ACW is where I want to be. As I’ve said, I would rather lose here than go to the bush leagues – and I sincerely mean it.